Thinking twice

I'm thinking twice to leave... (what to leave? you don't need to know)
I've been hurting so much... so much that it makes me cry.. day and night..
I have been told how tang-G-A I was.. I guess they are right... I'm just like that.. I really am.

I'm so damn stupid!!! Why did this have to happen... Should I give up? or be a tang-G-A forever? No one really understands me.. No one will.. cause I've never told anyone the whole thing about me.. it is difficult to trust someone completely... I never did that... I think so... I never opened myself to someone that I feel I could trust for the rest of my life.. but a lot of persons have been trusting me... T_T.. I just don't know why I can't do the same.. What a person I am..

I'm always pretending.. pretending to be happy.. to be enjoying every moment of my life.. even though I am not.. sometimes I wish that it would have been better if i disappear.. but then I don't cause of the consequences...

Should I give up? for what?? again since I don't trust anyone... I'm keeping it to myself... what the heck... T_T i'm really silly... how can someone help me.. If I can't help myself at all... what a poor thing.. (me)... Well this is me... *sighs*

fufu... im outta here...